Aug 2020

Hi! My name is Emily and I am a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist at CARES. Six years ago, as of July 27th, I started my recovery journey. I remember the early morning vividly. Waking my mother up asking for help with such desperation in my voice. Entering into recovery was life or death for me. My brain was foggy and the only two options I could see were either to find a new path or to end my life. Fortunately for me, I started the journey of recovery with the help of my family and friends and never looked back. I struggle with more than Substance Use Disorder, I am also a person in recovery from mental health and an eating disorder. These all play a role into how my substance use disorder impacted my life before recovery and even my recovery now.

My journey through recovery may not be deemed traditional as some may call it, but it is what works for me. I entered recovery through a twelve step fellowship. That fellowship saved my life my first two years in recovery. However, I am a firm believer that recovery is a journey not a destination. My journey has taken me through a multitude of pathways. I have practiced twelve step fellowships for both my substance use disorder and eating disorder. I then went through a period of time where mindfulness and therapy were my recovery. I have come to the realization that whatever feeds my soul and nourishes my heart is what I chose to practice. Solo Recovery is what I chose to embrace. This journey has led me to accomplish things beyond my wildest dreams. I completed both my Bachelor’s and Master’s in Social Work. Attending schools that I never imagined were possible for me. I found a job where I am able to recover out loud, from all disorders. It is truly a beautiful thing, because I have come to learn that my imperfections are make me who I am. Today I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, and an ally.